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Jungle Dynamic

Posted: November 24, 2018 in Uncategorized

It’s a fact of human behavior … observable truth of the first kind
how we ignore what is around us … chase after the wrong thing
it’s about timing and chance chance and circumstance
comings and goings on an ant farm populated by apes.

Toss human nature into the mix and it is what it becomes
too often exactly what you thought it would be … more or less
erratic movements describe a pattern beneath chaos
underlying order vast and unempathetic.

In this mathematical Serengeti we embody jungle dynamic
… cherish and protect our young until they join the herd
becoming one more among our number
all in accordance with laws of nature.

Death of an infant birth of a star
… that’s the universe for you
we just live here … go along get along
it’s no wonder we behave this way.

It’s Like Love

Posted: November 18, 2018 in Uncategorized

When you surprise me it’s like love
then I’m not sure I know you
when you defy my expectations
you are not my Frankenstein monster
I am not your creator.

The times we danced not by candlelight but in fire
our mutual friction making of our love pyromania
and when the fire died down we remained sentient
animate objects capable of feeling affection
within modified range.

We redesign ourselves
extend our gauge parameters
invent better versions of ourselves
this is how we torment and delight one another
this is how we repurpose hunger as love.

Clues

Posted: November 12, 2018 in Uncategorized

I see shadows of invisible things
hidden rays I can feel but cannot touch
orderly laws of physics
give way to racial sense memory
mine only fester and tears do me no good.

The rising of a sun the movement of stars across heavens
a vast indifference to the ticktock mechanics of my clanking cranium
entwining network of nerves threading worry through my body
stiff muscles sore neck bowed head petrified in submission.

Tension releases only when I raise my gaze
somewhere out there something is signaling
though welcome these godly emanations make me wary
this emergent cosmic eminence may decree on too grand a scale
in the way eternity devours time and strength wipes away weakness.

I hunch within my self-confining space
no door to close against silence
and dark cloaked beings who likely mean me no harm
who may in fact offer deliverance
which demands I move from here.

Life is a slow-motion exodus
sliding like tectonic plates over earth’s molten core
I progress at a rate of six centimeters per eon
every ten thousand years I get a clue.

Wishes Wane

Posted: November 3, 2018 in Uncategorized

Pacing the floor looking at lines forming
a faint fractured fresco etching my pale palm
thinking it wasn’t the happiest of lives
but then who is happy truly in life
what shape does it take how long can it last?

Once I thought I knew joy’s features
but forms conform to forces familiar
and I am fond of contentment.

Wishes wane in fading sunlight
the pictures they paint are black-and-white
less pleasing to eyes than to mind
a reflection of function over form
some chiaroscuro bastard offspring.

This coupling of wisdom and experience
seems messy but inevitable – a birthing
a serene infant too smooth and formless.

Cultivated

Posted: October 31, 2018 in Uncategorized

My beard is shorn I am a cultivated man

          Distaff crazy cat lady mad poet on the corner

Howling hounds of the neighborhood Baskerville Hall

          Son of Sam scenarios before you know it

It’s a good thing old people are frail

          It’s nature’s way of protecting the rest of us

We confine our casualties to drawing rooms

Low Point

Posted: October 18, 2018 in Uncategorized

At your lowest point
broken and wounded
lying on the floor
black blood gushing

from your broken joints
I held you
I wept over you.
You were not my lover

you were not my mother
you were not my father
not my brother my sister
you were not my friend.

You were someone
and I was someone else
who cared for you
only in that moment.

Experience Discourages Valor

Posted: October 13, 2018 in Uncategorized

I hate how I tainted you with my anxiety
my jittery lack of confidence a contagion
it takes courage to be strong
experience discourages valor.

Not even the gods willingly risked flames
tell myself I believe in tomorrow
hope and mercy fire and brimstone
I teeter in the balance I do not tweet.

I am no canary and this is no coal mine
compression of my carbon-based atoms
produces a heat-blasted heart of diamond
becomes its own source of light.

If I am thrown by what I then see
I may weaken and I may stumble
if I get back up I will stand taller
I will hold you without trembling.