Long Shadow

Posted: March 19, 2018 in Uncategorized

I regret my lifelong reticence
how many times I hesitated.

In the bright light of midday
all things seemed possible.

In these twilight moments
doubt emerges.

A stela a totem
casting its long shadow.


The Pagan Pledge

Posted: March 18, 2018 in Uncategorized

Do not begrudge me a little laughter
I wanted things to be easy
what can you do dreams come.

The problem with rituals is the blood and pain
why can’t we simply celebrate the pleasure
repudiate the rheumatoid injunctions
no aging fists pummeling us into submission.

            Priests demand sacrifice rebels resist
            the pagan pledge is a greater honor.

We are a band of brothers bound by simple necessity
where our interests intersect they then entwine
mutually assured cooperation in pursuit of self-satisfaction
we keep it simple it makes things easier.


Posted: March 17, 2018 in Uncategorized

When reality presents itself expectations shatter
new land masses appear on the horizon
the contours of life assume new patterns.

The quotidian becomes quixotic
previous arrangements disassemble
things come undone.

Now what rears its ugly head a question a challenge
a beguiling pathway into the unknown
experience shows us the mundane at the heart of mystery.

Yet questions roil and rise from ether entwining smoky tendrils
tickling the mind in slumber obscuring the edge of awareness
the thin gray line between sleep and eyes wide shut.

To waken twist the band tighter around your wrist
until split skin bleeds red rivulets across the watch face
an alarming sign of the correct time.

A Single Breath

Posted: March 16, 2018 in Uncategorized

All I ever envisioned was a fantasy of happiness
it can never come true even when it does
something’s never quite right in the event
even in the one rare moment
an unfolding within a single breath.

You flinch you are ejected you turn away
as if from a hard light too bright
remove yourself from the heart of happiness
because you sense it harbors disappointment.

You can feel it waiting in the wings to make an entrance
an uninvited guest eager to spoil the party
but you always leave that door open
it’s your way out to the big empty
where nothing is evident and everything is still possible.

Every Time I Don’t

Posted: March 15, 2018 in Uncategorized

Every time I don’t is one more time I didn’t

            no more soaking in sentiment
            no more maudlin journeys up a lazy river
            no more regret that I killed our love
            no more wallowing in my crimes
            taking refuge in my ignorance

those dark places along the shore are no more
and if it matters to anyone I was always afraid.

Sweet Secrets

Posted: March 14, 2018 in Uncategorized

The laughter of lovers keeping sweet secrets
echoes in the air like bird song on the wind.

We made music with wine on honeyed days
we laughed in Italian made love in French.

Now I shuffle through long lost love letters
consigning memory to ashes.

I cannot revisit those sunlit orchards
these documents are only talismans.

They are not sacred records but magical tinder
if I am cold their flame shall warm me.

A Quip Is Not a Whip

Posted: March 13, 2018 in Uncategorized

They personalize every comment you make
every clever observation every Wilde quip
a quip is not a whip Himself might have observed
every remark not meant to leave one
words can be harmful yes the truth can injure sure.

A writer plays with fire a poet burns down the house
but I have declared myself show me what harm I’ve done
in saying what I’ve said I set us both free
we climbed through the same barbwire fence to get here
you’re only scratched I drew hardly any blood at all.