Eyes Only

Posted: March 31, 2020 in Uncategorized

You were trying to explain
you needed me to know.
Looking at the natural order of things
we said ha ha.
There! You see, just as I said, I told you so.

It’s. Not. News.
Unbothered by your end-of-world scenarios
I could only shrug my shoulders.
I get by on native instinct
the theory and practice of heaven eludes me.

But when I dance I know the truth 
let my body do the talking
my mind only mucking things up
elegance for eloquence.
But we can tell lies in sign language.

So let’s use our eyes only
trust orbital juncture where body reveals mind
shoulders down jaw muscles unclenched…
. . . S I L E N C E . . .
Now we’re talking.

Faith and Reason

Posted: November 11, 2019 in Uncategorized

Only a monster
can save us
from monsters.

Look what we have become
we are frightened of ourselves
with good reason
reason being our best hope faith our false prophet
leading us astray every which way.

Be reasonable first and reason will out
put faith in that
in good faith we can only be reasonable men
reasonable men allow room for faith…
hoping faith can be reasoned with
doubters have their reason the faithful their fervor.

For every library they build churches
for every book they build a fire
when the fires die the monsters return
hungry for sacrifice
reason fled into shadow
its return is no resurrection yet brings hope.

I Keep You

Posted: November 4, 2019 in Uncategorized

You vanished from my life
I find you in my dreams
it’s the closest we come.

You stand apart from strangers
yet you are part of the crowd.
It amazes me how I can know you
across time and space
dreams being essentially other dimensional.

Same old same all but you persist for me
you punch through
this gossamer thin unyielding barrier
between morning and timelessness
and I keep you here.

Broken Eggs

Posted: October 26, 2019 in Uncategorized

Clock ticks and the red robin’s nest remains.
Anything can lead to everything
my memories are precious but unnecessary
my fantasies far more entertaining than reality.
The more I amuse myself the more content I become.
I draw deeper breaths to sync up my heart and lungs.

The moment my breath climaxes I connect with you.
Linked between physical and ephemeral
intertwining body and brain flesh and mind
opening to the natural world
sinking into the greater unconscious remove.
Clock chimes and the feathered nest cradles broken eggs.

Avoiding Revelations

Posted: September 1, 2019 in Uncategorized

You never lacked for certainty
though your beliefs changed over time
as bedrock turned to sand
one temple after another
collapsing into dust and rubble
ruins of inconvenient memory.

Fuzzy old photos we looked at
they were versions of ourselves
still somewhat recognizable
facial muscles arranging smiles heads lifted
posture unprepared for our own future
though we sensed its coming.

And so now we devise new belief systems
accommodate present-tense circumstance
act accordingly go about our business resolute
still open to     yet hoping to    avoid revelations
too soon for another life-changing event
enlightenment can be such an inconvenience.

Don’t Think

Posted: August 11, 2019 in Uncategorized

What if I don’t think
turn off the tap lay down my head
shut my eyes let benign darkness take me
emptiness embrace me.

I pursue familiar fantasies again and again
wearing grooves into my brain
memories binding tighter and tighter
squeezing out the present moment.

If I am alone now at least I know how I got here
there is that to sit with:
reasons I spin to explain where I’ve been
exhausted now pursuing the past.

When did I take up brooding?
There is no menace in it no unbound Frankenstein monster
no October werewolf broken free at last
only a cold place in which to huddle.

I could generate heat at will
make my mind a furnace to burn off this chilly limbo
create a thermal door or blast a charred hole in the wall
at least a window perhaps to admire the pretty view.

But then of course I’d need to decide
whether or not to take a stroll
though my preference would be
not to have to think about it.


Posted: July 4, 2019 in Uncategorized

I envy the dead a little
they need give no explanations.
This incessant necessity to vindicate myself

to wipe away your puzzled frown
erase the mildly alarmed face of my inquisitor
avid curiosity beneath your placid gaze

such dreadful calm demeanor.
You would have me rip open my chest to reveal my heart
tear off the top of my head to “share” my thoughts.

I would have given them to you freely
but I was unable to express myself i was lame
incoherent inarticulate all too self-aware.

My heart on the other hand I would not give
nor allow you like an Aztec priest to rip it from my chest
bloody and still beating.

If I am melodramatic it is because I have seen you in action
I know how far you will go pursuing your truth.
Facing my judges I am struck mute

before the mob I can only collapse
allow myself to be trampled though I’m no martyr
just another dumb ass who couldn’t explain himself.