Leave Me Be

Posted: June 19, 2018 in Uncategorized

Leave me be i’ll get there or I won’t
like some kind of sexy beast
lithely limning the motions.

Stop being my hell
other people can’t live with them
we bring out the killer in each other.

But mostly we hug
the choice to hug or to kill
a path taken six billion times a day.

We think this an enviable record
having become indifferent to love and suffering
living life in the neutral zone.

Plato’s ideal great for the mind
but i cannot abide the pain
otherwise i’d do more.

Leave me be
the way
i am.

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Nothing To Fear

Posted: June 15, 2018 in Uncategorized

Feet up head back six decades on let it come
one part exhaustion one part resignation a dash of resistance
when the vehicle breaks down get out and walk.

Or maybe you need a wheelchair to roll
another man invented it maybe it’s the best you’ve got
on your last leg crutches work too.

Until finally you stop walking altogether anyway
look down at your feet look up at the sky cry or laugh
if you’re still angry you may curse God demand explanations.

It’ll get you nowhere fast about as far as a dying echo fading
and if you are still suffering you can be resentful
and if the pain isn’t too bad you can be thankful,

remembering how once
you thought
there was nothing to fear.

Am I Dreaming?

Posted: June 13, 2018 in Uncategorized

When you’re hard on yourself
you become harder on others
the art of listening
being key to seduction.

Every time I need you
you’re not there
I could not make myself
happy alone.

No life of the mind
without putting your heart into it
I’m only content when I know
I can get what I want.

I dreamed up these rewards
to keep myself from waking
these pleasant trances
sustain me…

…a blueprint for the architecture
of this lustrous illusion
such intelligent design
proves I only think

…I am dreaming.

Truth and Dust

Posted: June 8, 2018 in Uncategorized

She’s always seeking new answers to old questions – she seeks afar.
Categorized and cataloged neatly on her shelves
the answers are at hand concealed beneath a shroud of dust
close to home much closer than she knows as close as a heart to a mind
the precise distance a line traced by tears descended to the border of her smile.

Her face is a treasure map
lovingly etched with careworn creases her latitude and longitude
clues to an uncharted realm where her archive is buried deep.
If we keep digging we may unearth her truth.
Four hands on one shovel make slow work or fast.

Reality Check

Posted: June 5, 2018 in Uncategorized

Better a late reality check than never
this need to need people
only a heel would reveal Achilles’ weakness
but truth is a cold bath indeed
no shrinkage of the soul for those coming clean.

No patience for those too self-absorbed to take a hint
I’ve taken my share
I cannot get through to you
I spelled it out for you ten thousand times
‘nuff said lesson learned.

Still I fill every blank space with words
I think they matter
no point in talking
speech won’t serve
words are not my friend.

Judas Was a Fall Guy

Posted: May 30, 2018 in Uncategorized

I no longer think I’m a good person
I’ve caused no real harm
but nor have I done any lasting good.

There’s nothing you could point to
nothing wrong that I don’t already know
I have analyzed myself exhaustively.

Self-awareness by way of self-involvement
the narcissists path to mindfulness
Jesus was a good guy Judas was a fall guy.

Mohammed ascended into malicious myth
Yahweh went thataway
Buddha said nothing.

I am a monkey man jabbering to myself
in the end at least I was relatively harmless
it could have been so much worse.

Depths of Delusion

Posted: May 28, 2018 in Uncategorized

We live within the depths of a delusion
keep it simple stupid I’m embarrassed
all those unguarded moments.

Nothing so vulnerable as a trusting heart
might as well take a knife to it yourself
saves time in the long run simpler really.

But that’s no way out
even precise language artfully deployed
gets you only so far.

If it helps you understand
you’re that much worse off.

Every time you show yourself
you’re taking a chance
every time you come up for air.

Friend or foe you don’t know
could be birds of prey hovering up there.

You can try for truth or spin the illusion
a little faster.

You may churn up something authentic
or just make a bigger splash
before you sink.