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Show of Strength

Posted: June 25, 2017 in Uncategorized

Here’s the thing we are all a little bit crazy
the world sees to that one way or another
to some degree we will suffer for it
but we try not to succumb.

For this show of strength
the universe shows us who’s boss
and we are made more crazy
it’s nothing to be ashamed of nothing to hide.

          crazy is as human as apple pie
          we get along for the most part
          every hug is an accommodation

And love is another form of gratitude
another way we get by
better than raving
less effective than enlightenment.

Old Memories

Posted: June 23, 2017 in Uncategorized

I make a conscious and concerted effort to persuade myself
not to be anxious
not to fret.

The memory of phones ringing late at night
the crazy that comes at you after dark
friend and foe alike eager to disturb the peace.

Long ragged scars extend down through the years
old memories like fresh wounds
bitterness taints clarity.

I lack the energy to care
my vitality worn away by worry
exhaustion is its own kind of peace.

Acceptance and avoidance are a reasonable response
when the rooms are empty
and the house is quiet.

Avoidance

Posted: June 18, 2017 in Uncategorized

She isolates herself from voices
protects herself from the intrusive palpability of human sound
it’s a rough and unwelcome hand stroking her mind
a rude caress a crude stimulus demanding response
a question that requires an answer
her inner ear the tiny bones the ligaments and hairs react in a chorus of submission.

You can’t talk to me that way you can’t talk to me any way your speech is a violation
your voice is a seducer its vibrations betray your motives
you think it a song it’s a cry for attention it’s a demand my body is helpless to refuse
certain parts rush to the fore it’s their job it’s their purpose they are helpless
but I am more than the sum of my parts I resist your seductive call
I refute the possibility of hearing.

Avoidance of understanding is the result
but it is not her intention her methods are purely defensive
her body is electric she can alternate the current
she flicks switches on a control panel inside her head
can even disconnect completely from the source
some call it civil treason she cannot understand their reasoning she won’t hear it.

Self-ish By Default

Posted: June 16, 2017 in Uncategorized

We are both too close to her but in different ways.
We each understand certain facets better than others.
Pooling our insights gives us both a more complete picture.

I’ve got to be honest she was weakened.
She was less of herself and that made the day better for me.
I spent less of my energy contending and resisting.
I relaxed enough to lower my defenses.

This is how it is now things may never be better.
The time comes when change is ever in the wind.
Things may change for good.

I make no demands reflexively resist entreaty.
It is unbecoming to me what I am becoming.
I’m no good to anybody if I’m not true to myself.
Being the bigger person making less of yourself.

Come what may here I am self-ish by default.

Keep It Simple

Posted: June 8, 2017 in Uncategorized

Keep it simple keep it pain-free
Don’t break my bones or bust my balls
Take a breath and realize our situation

You kill me with a soft touch
You don’t mean it it’s just the way we are
Exercising control leaves us exhausted

It’s a struggle to survive like this
So we try to kiss the hurt away
Tell each other we’re a work in progress

We’re doing the best we can, brother
Look how far we’ve come from Original Sin
Though some we commit again and again

It’s the simplest thing we find most difficult
We can’t seem to relax the muscles to open our hand
We can’t seem to unclench our fists

Late in the Day

Posted: June 6, 2017 in Uncategorized

Good bad or indifferent life is a gift
so there’s no need to fear death.
It is late in the day
and it is time to come to terms.

I don’t look good I don’t feel good
I have not been taking care of myself
I can’t sleep I need rest

There are circles under my eyes
and there are clouds in the sky.
A rain may come to wash me clean
but I shiver when wet.

The mind takes a backseat to the body
The body won’t stop doing what the body wants
Until the body falls asleep at the wheel

If my will takes the wheel in time
I may be saved.
Or I may crash and burn
somewhere near the end of this rugged road.

Submission

Posted: June 3, 2017 in Uncategorized

We like it how we like it we prefer not to think it through

We get on our knees we bend over straddle clutch mount and lie prone

We intimidate and apply force oh so adroitly seeking only surrender

We take charge and we submit pushing each other to the edge

We need the danger we need the chaos a chance to suffer harm

We rely on the safety of unspoken agreements and secret pacts

A contract freely entered into with no fine print and no loopholes

This is the natural order of things and we are true to our nature

We peel back the protective layers to reveal our naked needs

Our vulnerability is proof of our willingness to live and to love