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Memory Is Singular

Posted: December 15, 2018 in Uncategorized

A gesture recalled in the moment
a kindness I forgot to extend.

Am I the only one who remembers?
How do you not recall each priceless second?

The embrace of an intimate amnesiac
leaves me cold and empty.

This is not melancholy this is recognition
letting time trickle through my dry fingers.

Frantic Spirit

Posted: December 8, 2018 in Uncategorized

Having tested the limits of physicality
having tasted too many flavors
taken too many bites
drunk too much wine

sang too many songs
climbed too many trees
swum too many rivers
loved too often though never well

I then pursued a life of the mind went mad
fell back upon my heart which promptly broke.
My spirit stood on the sidelines
waving wildly to get my attention.

I cauterized my wounds with truth
which offered no comfort.
But wounds heal and though I inflict new ones
my frantic spirit never stops trying to signal me.

Triggers

Posted: December 1, 2018 in Uncategorized

I hear music and take flight
air climbs inside my nose
I fall into a deep well of memory.

Have to remind myself this is the good life
keeping in mind the underlying premise
none of it is real.

          Triggers act as a kill-switch
          a built-in flaw in the matrix
          self-defeat the only exit
          from a self-defeating system.

The clock tocks when it should tick
I zag when I should zig
space between molecules allows breathing room.

          If I concentrate on essence
          and forget form
          I can slide right through.

Jungle Dynamic

Posted: November 24, 2018 in Uncategorized

It’s a fact of human behavior … observable truth of the first kind
how we ignore what is around us … chase after the wrong thing
it’s about timing and chance chance and circumstance
comings and goings on an ant farm populated by apes.

Toss human nature into the mix and it is what it becomes
too often exactly what you thought it would be … more or less
erratic movements describe a pattern beneath chaos
underlying order vast and unempathetic.

In this mathematical Serengeti we embody jungle dynamic
… cherish and protect our young until they join the herd
becoming one more among our number
all in accordance with laws of nature.

Death of an infant birth of a star
… that’s the universe for you
we just live here … go along get along
it’s no wonder we behave this way.

It’s Like Love

Posted: November 18, 2018 in Uncategorized

When you surprise me it’s like love
then I’m not sure I know you
when you defy my expectations
you are not my Frankenstein monster
I am not your creator.

The times we danced not by candlelight but in fire
our mutual friction making of our love pyromania
and when the fire died down we remained sentient
animate objects capable of feeling affection
within modified range.

We redesign ourselves
extend our gauge parameters
invent better versions of ourselves
this is how we torment and delight one another
this is how we repurpose hunger as love.

Clues

Posted: November 12, 2018 in Uncategorized

I see shadows of invisible things
hidden rays I can feel but cannot touch
orderly laws of physics
give way to racial sense memory
mine only fester and tears do me no good.

The rising of a sun the movement of stars across heavens
a vast indifference to the ticktock mechanics of my clanking cranium
entwining network of nerves threading worry through my body
stiff muscles sore neck bowed head petrified in submission.

Tension releases only when I raise my gaze
somewhere out there something is signaling
though welcome these godly emanations make me wary
this emergent cosmic eminence may decree on too grand a scale
in the way eternity devours time and strength wipes away weakness.

I hunch within my self-confining space
no door to close against silence
and dark cloaked beings who likely mean me no harm
who may in fact offer deliverance
which demands I move from here.

Life is a slow-motion exodus
sliding like tectonic plates over earth’s molten core
I progress at a rate of six centimeters per eon
every ten thousand years I get a clue.

Wishes Wane

Posted: November 3, 2018 in Uncategorized

Pacing the floor looking at lines forming
a faint fractured fresco etching my pale palm
thinking it wasn’t the happiest of lives
but then who is happy truly in life
what shape does it take how long can it last?

Once I thought I knew joy’s features
but forms conform to forces familiar
and I am fond of contentment.

Wishes wane in fading sunlight
the pictures they paint are black-and-white
less pleasing to eyes than to mind
a reflection of function over form
some chiaroscuro bastard offspring.

This coupling of wisdom and experience
seems messy but inevitable – a birthing
a serene infant too smooth and formless.