Things I fill my head with to keep myself sane:
I do not wish to join the vanilla people
though their soft arms open wide to receive me
another sheep in the herd suitable for shearing.

I hide from them
my frantic ceremonies to keep them at bay
only attract their attention.
They see schizophrenia psychosis episodes

anti-social disturbance and ill repute.
I told them I keep telling them:
I talk to myself because I’m the only one here
an empty room listens at least.

Proof of madness?
All I ask is benign neglect
leave me be I mean you no harm
please don’t burn me at the stake.

Just turn your big broad backs to me
and I will vanish within your white shadows.
Only from time to time you may hear
echoes of my maniacal laughter.

Start to Finish

Posted: May 18, 2019 in Uncategorized

That’s how it always seems to go from start to finish
the same message swaddled in different words
a sermon a lecture a teaching sharing giving
preaching from pulpit kneeling at altar
ranting on a street corner.

The end is always near never here no one knows for sure
especially those substituting faith for knowledge
every statement the mother of countless questions
have faith in science test your theories
only continue to dream.

Bad Habits

Posted: May 11, 2019 in Uncategorized

I made you a habit
a commodity
you were disposable

a temporary fix.
I brought everything I could
to each occasion

heat and charm in abundance
a bouquet of artificial flowers
pretty to look at but unnatural

lifeless through and through
a product of chemistry we created.
When we were spent I shed my lab coat

headed for the nearest sealed exit
thinking you were a good person
who had some bad habits.

Unpoem

Posted: April 21, 2019 in Uncategorized

Euclidean equations Newtonian constructs
metaphysical geometric transmutations

then there’s hearts and flowers
barn doors and gardens hugs and kisses

I hate that stuff
metaphorically if not metaphysically

nice enough as far as they go
some say there is nothing beyond a garden

who am I to argue
I live in a city

Porcupine

Posted: April 14, 2019 in Uncategorized

I like the idea of meditation
more than I like meditating.
I am not demanding
but I am easily disappointed.

I am not hard to please
but I have very refined standards.
Well-meaning and empathetic
I am nevertheless off-putting.

Not my fault by default
I was born a porcupine.
You wanted a hug anyway
cried when you came away bleeding.

Tangled

Posted: March 21, 2019 in Uncategorized

Entangled in invisible threads of my matrix
jittery puppet dangling from electric wire
doing a digital dance flopping and flailing.
Lines are cut I collapse in a heap of tears

and I am grateful.
I remember everything fondly finally
and miss none of it.
Toss in a few regrets mix well

bitter brew is best drinking to seek clarity.
Drunk on truth you find self-acceptance.
Man in the mirror neither friend nor foe
looking a little bit sad but thankful too.

Our World

Posted: March 17, 2019 in Uncategorized

Does the physical universe reveal God’s mind?
What is the atomic weight of one secret?

A black hole in the soul
inspiration is celestial fire in our veins
the heart is a sun the brain a quasar.

I am happy and the sky lights up
I am afraid and night is endless black menace.

Your laughter falls on me like a meteor shower
your disease burns me like radiation
your tears are prisms refracting starlight.

Our crying is cosmic static gray atmosphere
clouding a rare precious sapphire.

Our jewel of rock and water
and air we breathe under pressure
a deity’s notion tainted by our sweat.